Who am I?

All my life I have struggled with with the question of “Who am I?” You see, I was an outcast, a loner–someone who always tried to reach out but was turned away. I would try to impress the wrong people, try to blend in with particular crowds, or just feel wanted by someone–anyone. I wore so many masks in my lifetime. And this is what I thought about myself:

• I am weak

• I deserve nothing

• I am a failure

• I am not worthy

• I am fearful

• I am wounded

• I am stained

   

Finally though, God got a hold of my life. Everything I had tried, failed. I couldn’t find love, or answers on my own. So, I humbled myself before God and admitted I could do nothing without Him. I surrendered my past and everything I’d done to Him. Then the Lord really jacked me up. He says in His most loving voice, “Perfect NOW I can work on you.” And He did. God rocked my world!! He broke my external shell and set me free. This is what He told me about myself:

• I am loved

• I am righteous through Christ

• I am a warrior for God

• I walk in mercy, surrounded by grace

• I am purified, made clean

• I am His child.

   

How does that make you feel? Do you ever question who you are? Do you ever wonder “what in the world am I doing?” I did all the time. And sometimes I still question my motives.

My point here is to be real with you. To show you how much of a screw-up I really was (and could be without God). My life is a open book to you. I’m not ashamed of who I am or what I was.

Listen, I have awesome news for you. Jesus Christ changed all that for me and I know He can do it for you as well. He made my mind anew and brought pieces back to my life. Sure, I still struggle but I have answers, accountability, and a gracious God who loves me and you. The Bible says (in Romans 3:23 NLT) “All men have come short the glory of God.” But in the very next verse (24) it says that through Jesus we can be made righteous and whole. “Yet God with His undeserved kindness, declares that we are righteous. He did this through Christ Jesus when He freed us from the penalty of our sins.”

Blessings